Present Moments…

by Winter on August 27, 2014

It is always bittersweet when we reach these hazy, hot days of August. This quiet morning a window has opened for me to sit on our porch and post my thoughts…of which there are many. One most foremost in my awareness is the changing weather and how flexible we need to be, how our best-laid plans can change at the drop of a hat. There is no “normal” July or August weather anymore.  August has been a mixture of cool, fall weather and hot, humid, July weather.  Our weather can change drastically with the drop of a hat.And so it is that I try to be mindful that today is a lovely summer day.

From the beginning of our relationship Michael always tried to get me to seize the summer days in Maine because not only do they not last, they are unpredictable. Mindful of that, I have been swimming in the river almost every day.  How is it that for so many years I didn’t swim in these waters? In fact, I barely got wet.  (I rationalize that I was sailing on the ocean, but it isn’t the same.) Currently, I am as addicted to swimming in fresh water as much as I used to be addicted to a daily, seven-mile, run.

I love to slip into the dark, deep water and, as quietly as I can, swim away from the dock. In the middle of the cove I look up at the trees, or out at islands a mile away, and marvel at the beauty surrounding me. Perhaps I could say that this summer I have a special oneness with nature.  The dark waters of the Saco River do not scare me, neither does “Charlotte,” the very large dock spider who lives at the ladder. To be honest, it is with a bit of sadness that I watch her each day, knowing that when she dies, summer will be gone.

Up the river the kids jump from rope swings, or off cliffs,  just as their grandparents used to do. For now, they are not attached to their cell phones or computers. They are in their summer moments before school starts again.

Dolphins taught me that I have to be fully present if I am to be with them.  If I am not, they are gone. Swimming in the river is like that for me. When I am in the water there is only the present moment…a very rich, present moment.





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Just say, “Yes.”

by Winter on July 12, 2014

Today is the kind of Maine summer day that you wish would continue for several months, although I suspect, it is going to become much warmer as the day goes on. Usually I don’t start my mornings reading, but Michael left at 5 am to kayak for a Peaks Island to Portland swimmer.  I was up early watching the sun slowly wake up, listening to the birds, and doing my usual routine of feeding Sneakers, Mikha, and Grizzel (the cat), and tending to the chickens.  When I finally sat down with my tea, I clicked on a New York Times op-ed by Dick Cavett: Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee. In the article he writes of his magical experience during an Yuwipi Ceremony. The article was yet another gentle tap on my shoulder to post the inner message I have been hearing these last few days/weeks.

The message goes something like this.  It’s as if we have a spiritual amnesia.  We have cut ourselves off from the adventure of life, which is more than white-water rafting, Disney World, or shopping. Spirit is always here, we have been taught not to see it.  We wrap our sightings of Spirit in terms of “something weird, or strange, happened.” How different our world would be if we didn’t tell our children, “That’s just your imagination.” (I frequently watch our 8-month old Aussie puppy, Sneakers, watch things that I don’t yet see.  I know they are there, I can sense them, and I am working hard to take away the veil of not seeing.)

My Grandmother saw fairies dancing in the rain and angels hovering over the family graveyard.  My aunts were witness to unexplained lights, windows opening and closing on their own, and sharing a home with folks long dead. Even my father, a very quiet man, once told me of a ghost horse that walked between he and his father on the way to the watering trough. This isn’t weird, or spooky, or woo-woo.  It’s the nature of the reality we live in. It’s our Divine Nature.

Our society has censored the Divine, and her help, from our collective consciousness.  If we are going to change, to evolve, we have to say yes so that life can come to us in unexpected ways. (We have shown we can’t change ourselves on our own, how do we expect to change consciousness, or solve the problems of the world?)

I suggest that, starting today, you say, “Yes” to your Divine Nature. Know that if you take one step all the helpers waiting (to help) come running toward you. They want to work with you…this is the adventure.  You are stepping into the bigger picture, which is waiting to be lived.

You just might wake up to a magical world.


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