Along the path to enlightenment…

by Winter on March 24, 2014

Make no mistake about it…enlightenment is a destructive process.  It has nothing too do with becoming better or being happier.  Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the façade of pretense.  It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.  Adyashanti

I used to believe that enlightenment meant being one with invisible worlds: seeing all life as threads of glowing energy, hearing voices of the unseen and, perhaps, conversing with them.  I would never have a question or decision to make because I would instantly “know” what needed to be done. I would have compassion for everyone.  Enlightenment would mean all of my senses were heightened and I would be  in a perpetual state of oneness. (Just how I expected to be one with everything and still function in human form, I’m not sure.  But I expected that in my enlightened state I would manage to do so.)

But something happened along my way to enlightenment.  I started to see the bigger picture of the physical world. Seeing more started during medical readings when I realized that I couldn’t separate the illness, or disease, of a client from their surroundings. Everything was connected—cause and effect. And surroundings included environment, culture, relationship, the collective unconscious.

While pondering this web of connections,  I read a Carolyn Baker article on peak oil.  Once I allowed some information in, I became obsessed, I couldn’t stop researching peak oil. Carolyn puts it this way:

” …once one has allowed certain facts to implant themselves in consciousness, there is no turning back. Often, without consciously realizing it, we “sign up” for a journey from which there is no return and which will alter everything in our lives, including and especially, ourselves.”

Yes, I had signed up for a journey, but not the one I expected. It gets worse.  Just as I was trying to wrap my mind around “energy descent,” I discovered Guy McPherson‘s take on climate change and near-term extinction. I could rationalize that all of this is just faulty data, but I’m sitting here March 23 and the temperature will hit 0° tonight, with potential of yet another blizzard mid-week.  (I can’t escape to Virginia because they are predicted to have similar weather, or flee to Glastonbury, England (where we were married 25 years ago) because much of it is flooded.)

There comes a point in information-gathering where you begin to question everything.  Why am I here?  What is my purpose? Why does our media spend hours (weeks) on a missing plane (with one American aboard) and barely cover Fukushima?  (Not to mention the amount of radiation spread across our planet and what this means long-term for life on the planet?) Why spend weeks telling us in every way possible that we don’t know where the missing plane is, ignoring the fact that our political leaders are saber rattling and puffing their chest out at Russia? It doesn’t take intuitive abilities to see that the priorities of our “leaders” are really screwed up.

As I ponder these and other questions, an email arrives:  Remembering Tony Benn and his five questions.

“I think there are two ways in which people are controlled. First of all frighten people and secondly, demoralize them,” Benn told filmmaker Michael Moore. “The people in debt become hopeless, and the hopeless people don’t vote. Too many in power encourage such apathy and believe that an educated, healthy and confident nation is harder to govern.”

Now that’s a mouth­­­­­ ­full.  Benn goes on to say:

“In the course of my life I have developed five little democratic questions. If one meets a powerful person—Adolf Hilter, Joseph Stalin, or Bill Gates—ask them five questions: What power have you got? Where did you get it from? In whose interests do you exercise it? To whom are you accountable? And, how can we get rid of you? If you cannot get rid of the people who govern you, you do not live in a democratic system.”









Truth with a capital “T”

by Winter on March 6, 2014

Zipporah Dobyns once told me that I was searching for Truth with a capital “T.” Zip was a clinical psychologist as well as a pragmatic astrologer, and I am reminded of her words almost daily.

Because I have been somewhat shut in, I’ve been catching up on my reading and questioning everything that I read.  (The garden is not only piled with snow, it is frozen solid snow, and the greenhouse, while toasty during the day is way too cold at night to start new seedlings.) Fox Mulder (The X-Files) once said that the best place to place a lie was between two truths. I often remember this when I am reading (or watching) anything that purports to be fact. This morning Michael asked me, “How do you know you aren’t caught up in a conspiracy theory, something that just isn’t true?”

His question is not something that I often think about.  When something is a lie, a partial truth, or a lie by omission, I naturally sense the discrepancy.  This is certainly taking place with what we are being told about the Ukraine. (While working out recently I watched two different television stations give opposing “facts” about the situation.) Since I hardly expect our media to tell me the “Truth,” I must depend on my own inner compass to determine true/not true. My  automatic process starts with breathing slowly and paying total attention to my physical sensations. I don’t try to change these sensations, even if they are uncomfortable.

Truth resonates. There is a flow to the information which is often accompanied by a full-bodied awareness and a chill.  If something isn’t true, the energy is aggressive and heavy. If thoughts pop up, I acknowledge them, listen to—and sometimes evaluate what they say, then gently bring my attention back to the physical sensations. 

So, here are some of the things I have been reading and watching, starting with Climbing the Ladder of Awareness by Bodhi Paul Chefurka. If you are interested in checking your “Truth Compass” these links are a good place to start.

Life Changing: “Animal Whisperer” calms an angry panther

Dave Wigington/Geoengineering

Guy McPherson

Why you should have a little dark chocolate every day

Speaking Truth to Power

Ah, but it’s supposed to warm up tomorrow.  I can turn my mind and senses to seedlings, gardens, and swimming in the lake. I can give up sensing if something is true.

Or not. 



February 23, 2014

The Voice in my head whispered, “Let Michael get the mail.” “It’s a beautiful snow,” I argued.  ”Besides, I need to go into the greenhouse to get greens for tonight.” “Wear your cleats,” flashed across my mind, but by now the fresh snow was 8 inches deep and I decided that cleats were unnecessary. Out I […]

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Chasing Magic

February 9, 2014

There are some days when I can’t, or don’t, sense the Magic that is all around me.  Tasks are routine, the news is always something else to fear…storms (now we name our winter storms), the flu, the “Other.” If “they” tell us something long enough, and strong enough, do we believe it and make it […]

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What you seek is seeking you…(Rumi)

January 4, 2014

It was -30° this morning when I got up.  This coming Monday the temperature is predicted to be 40°, then 26° on Tuesday. Expecting the unexpected has become the norm, both in weather and life changing events. For several years I have suggested to my friends and clients that during these wild and crazy times […]

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October 27, 2013

In A Hidden Order I wrote about an unseen web that ties our lives together.  Admittedly, I don’t know how it works, just that if we pay attention, there is a flow to life that seems to lead to (perhaps) less suffering. Shortly after I posted my memorial to Mai Bock and Morgaine I heard from […]

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The End of an Era

October 14, 2013

Angels among us, Mai Bock and Morgaine, shared our home for over 18 years. Morgaine died September 6, and Mai Bock died in my arms,  on the way home from Virginia, October 3. Although we knew they were old, and they would be leaving us, their deaths have left our home very empty. We were […]

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Is this true?

September 5, 2013

It seems to me that our mind is amazingly creative when it comes to filling in details of things we do not know. We constantly make up stories that support our (perhaps warped) point of view, help us maintain our consumptive lifestyle, and that allow us keep us doing what we have always done. But […]

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We move at dawn….

June 12, 2013

A friend recently placed Martha Beck’s “Finding Your Way in a Wild New World”  in my hand as I was leaving her home.  She asked me to tell her what I thought of the content.  I didn’t think much of it at the time, but that night, when I crawled into bed, I opened the book […]

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You Can’t Go Home Again…

May 3, 2013

Writer Ella Winter once remarked to Thomas Wolfe, “Don’t you know you can’t go home again?” When I was growing up, many years after Wolfe had died, there was still outrage and hatred in the mountains of Asheville, North Carolina about what they had read, or seen about their town, in his books. Maybe because […]

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