‘Tis Mid-Winter Season

by Winter on December 10, 2017

This time of year I struggle with the part of me that wants Christmas to be what it was when I was a child: Christmas Carols, sparkly lights on a real tree, playing Mary in a nativity scene, the smell of sugar cookies baking in the oven and great anticipation of what I might find under the tree on Christmas morning. Speaking louder is a voice that says that there is something much greater, something truly magical beyond my little world view of the way things are and all I have to do is to stop looking and make myself available for it to show up.

One Christmas Eve, when Santa was still real to me, I thought I heard him in the living room. So very quietly I slipped out of bed and crept down the stairs. What I saw I can’t accurately describe. I didn’t see Santa and I didn’t see my parents. Everything in the room was glowing with a radiance unlike anything I had ever seen. Swirls of energy were dancing through the room⏤everything was alive. For the briefest of instances, there was no separation between me and this energy.

And herein is my struggle⏤it lies somewhere between the materialistic part of me that likes the Christmas tradition (even though I know it has been hijacked to make me consume more and supposedly grow the economy), and my mystical side that asks me to entertain the possibility that I don’t know what I think I know. (Experience has taught me that only when I suspend my beliefs does something greater rush in.)

Clients have a way of showing up to help me see/learn what I need to know. For the past few months I have been recommending Tosha Silver’s Outrageous Openness, Letting the Divine Take the Lead. I have successfully used Tosha’s recommendation of turning problems over to something greater on more than one occasion. Turning it over means getting “me” out of the way.

When you get out of the driver’s seat, you find that life can drive itself, that actually life has always been driving itself. When you get out of the driver’s seat, it can drive itself so much easier—it can flow in ways you never imagined. Life becomes almost magical. The illusion of the “me” is no longer in the way. Life begins to flow, and you never know where it will take you.”


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alexandra December 11, 2017 at 1:26 am

You’ve never lost that moment of Christmas magic! It continues to fill your life in many ways. Thanks so much for helping others top see and feel it! We all share in the energy of this plant’s aura and the breath of all of its inhabitants. Filling it can be such a joy – buoyed by the breath of others!


Winter December 12, 2017 at 6:07 pm

Thank you, Alexandra! The Happiest of Holidays to you! Your wonderful package is under our tree…helping create the spell of “anticipation!”


Susan D Doughty December 12, 2017 at 4:42 pm



Winter December 12, 2017 at 6:05 pm

And to you and yours, Susan!!!


Richard McGonagle December 14, 2017 at 2:39 am

I too absolutely believe there is something very special, and yes magical, about this time of year. I also get nostalgic for some of the old regulars of childhood. Yet there is another feeling that says there is so much more to it than any of that. I agree that letting go and getting out of the driver’s seat is very important. In fact absolutely necessary in order to really expand and grow in our spiritual journey through this rather strange trip called life on planet earth. More and more I feel that Shakespeare’s Hamlet’s line is absolutely accurate: “There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”
Thank goodness. Merry Christmas to all!


Winter December 14, 2017 at 3:28 pm

Thank you, Richard, for reminding us of Hamlet’s line. Also so very perfect…and timely!


Emilie December 19, 2017 at 1:36 pm

Lovely, Winter!

The magic of Christmas season, of allowing, reminds me of heart openers in yoga: what is bound gets released; what fiercely held beliefs “click” or shift to discover that which a moment before was inconceivable. I imagine these shifts are precisely what permits a light-guide to influence, what allows the precious process, enables the space in which being becomes connection.

In christian terminology, people used to talk about leaving their baggage at the foot of the cross. An over used joke was about those who return to take their burdens back again. (Happens all the time!!) This practice of placing at the foot of the cross and leaving it there, this practice of allowing, seeking, discovering, noticing, being is an ongoing relinquishment–that too is essential.

What about life is not about practice?!

Happy connecting!


Winter December 19, 2017 at 2:39 pm

Thank you for reminding me of heart openers in yoga. So fitting! I like your comment on enabling the space in which being becomes connection.


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